The Strangest Little Things

So. Now I don’t have the internet at home anymore, I’m in a room full of students who are all probably doing much more important stuff than me. They all look like they are revved up on coffee and a little smelly. I dont know if smelliness is a way of looking, but these people do.

I like my new house. Although, it’s hardly my house. There’s another girl upstairs that I haven’t met yet, and there was a guy passed out on the sofa in the lounge who apparently is also a resident. After I got there, it was pretty much time to head off to work, so we walked up the road, which is much nicer than the long train-ride from Emelie’s.

I had one of the best nights ever! Work was so much fun, there was this really cute guy who kept looking at me, and he tried to buy me a drink, which isn’t technically allowed, and normally I just keep the money, but I actually had a tequila shot with him just to show him that I liked him back.

Then, Jemma came and told me to go work the other side of the bar. I don’t understand what her problem is with me, but I always feel like she is out to get me. I have a suspicion she would have liked to make friends with Maggie and maybe she feels that I stole her place. Maggie told me that sometimes Jemma comes over to her (now, mine too) house and cleans it and just sits there waiting for Maggie to come home. I think that is sad.

Anyway. I kept catching him looking at me, and as soon as I had my break and came out from behind the bar, he shot up to me and asked if I wanted to dance. And i said yes.  He asked what time I finished and what I was doing after. I said I didn’t know and that I’d just moved. Turns out, he lives 7 houses down the street, so we decided we were all gonna party after closing.

Maggie and me went straight over there, and there were a lot of people there. It feels like I’m getting really into it now, getting to know people and stuff. His name is Adrian, and he is good friends with Maggie. They were all smoking, and I decided to try it too. I think I might have fallen asleep, because then it was quiet and Adrian said he would walk me home. Maggie had already left, so it was just us. In his house, they are all boys, so it looks really different from ours.  We stood in the hallway and I was trying to get my jacket on. Funny how difficult little things like coordination get when you’re tired. And then he kissed me. And I didn’t really know what to do, because he is a lot older than me and I felt a bit funny about it all, but most of all, I think, I just felt weird about going to Maggie’s that late because I didn’t have a key yet. So when he asked me, I said yes I’ll stay here.

And then we went to his room. He has a very nice room. It’s so tidy and neat. And then he rolled another one, and we smoked it and then he took my clothes off.

I woke up not knowing where I was, and then I remembered. Adrian wasn’t there, and there were some guys I didn’t know, so I just left and went home. Maggie was still sleeping, so I came here. I really need to get a key.

And, I worked out, after rent and that, I will have 20 pounds to live on for a week. I don’t know how to fix it, and I feel a bit worried about it, but I really don’t want to ask my parents for help. I am looking for other jobs again. I’m very hungry, might go past the kebab shop and see if I can get a free lunch.

Today’s Secret: I lied about my age to get my job.

~ by natalieorgeorgi on April 1, 2008.